What do I need to be doing more of? Writing, knitting, doing tai chi, meditating, and just working on finding more balance in my life. As of late my life has been a whirling mass of neglecting my own stuff until I am stuck in bed for days because I've worked myself into a flare up. Not only is this not healthy, it's also counter intuitive in my mission to help others. How can I be any good to anyone when I'm not being good to myself? In a word...can't!
So, look for more writing, more knitting, more of all of the things which make me who I am. I've been hitting the spiritual work so hard that I haven't been nurturing my creative side and frankly...my muse is pissed. Doing all this heavy hitting spiritually is making me tired. It's time to bring out the lighter side...the less serious me.
Does this mean that I'm done helping others? No, I'll never be done with that. I'm just ready to change the approach. I fully believe that we can do important work and fully enjoy life at the same time. I don't have it all figured out yet, but I'm working on it. I want my work to be uplifting and inspiring, not to feel like this heavy load of seriousness. Of course there is a time and place for everything...which brings us back to one little word doesn't it? Balance.